Heh, thanks. A whole month old today. It's been a turbulent month, but... here's to a better second month! Amnesia, screw you!
I can imagine missing sex. I mean, I think about it constantly, it doesn't take much for me to (TMI) get off anymore - it's like my go-to fix. Not sure that's healthy, but, I'm not hurting anything. It's just that whenever I see hot guys, I act like an ass. I know it's part of the personality disorder, and need to get that in check with therapy. Anyhow, sure, I can imagine that's really hard on you, and hard on your marriage. I wish I had some solution for you, a way to rewire you so that you could partake in sex and enjoy yourself.
I wish I had a way to fix both of us, physically and mentally. Sometimes I wonder how this all happened - how people can be stricken so acutely by BOTH issues?
*hugs* There is no normal, at least not from what I've seen in 31 days. And I think I'm okay with that. I'm not some template. In fact, I kind of like being different (minus the illnesses, of course). I can't imagine myself as a 9-to-5'er, content to wear a suit and walk around with a fake smile plastered on my face. Is that life? It doesn't seem it to me. But that could be the 31 day-old person in me talking. However, that just doesn't seem happy, and shouldn't we strive for happy - especially if we're already in pain and deserve it?
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I can imagine missing sex. I mean, I think about it constantly, it doesn't take much for me to (TMI) get off anymore - it's like my go-to fix. Not sure that's healthy, but, I'm not hurting anything. It's just that whenever I see hot guys, I act like an ass. I know it's part of the personality disorder, and need to get that in check with therapy. Anyhow, sure, I can imagine that's really hard on you, and hard on your marriage. I wish I had some solution for you, a way to rewire you so that you could partake in sex and enjoy yourself.
I wish I had a way to fix both of us, physically and mentally. Sometimes I wonder how this all happened - how people can be stricken so acutely by BOTH issues?
*hugs* There is no normal, at least not from what I've seen in 31 days. And I think I'm okay with that. I'm not some template. In fact, I kind of like being different (minus the illnesses, of course). I can't imagine myself as a 9-to-5'er, content to wear a suit and walk around with a fake smile plastered on my face. Is that life? It doesn't seem it to me. But that could be the 31 day-old person in me talking. However, that just doesn't seem happy, and shouldn't we strive for happy - especially if we're already in pain and deserve it?
*hugs*